I could never be free!!!

I could never be free, from the chains that you have wrapped around my heart! For a time I held on to that chain, let it control my life. But my life was going in circles, it seems I can’t get away from you, I can’t get near you.

Until I thought I have found the key that truly had set me free! Finally the chain is unlocked, and I finally moved on! Joy was in my heart again for quite sometime.

And so I thought… But how is it that the past haunts me still! Visions of you visit my dreams time and again. Day by day, a face of someone else reminds me of you! The hands of another remind me of your touch! Feelings that I thought I have long forgotten have once again awaken! Now like a shadow it seems to follow me wherever I go.

Ahh! Life! It’s more complicated than it was!

The Parents

3 AM.

I just had another dream. This time is a bit different. I did not dream about her … not directly … In my dream I saw her parents in what it seems a mall. I greeted them both. What I haven’t expected was, her father asked me to come by their house this coming Saturday, February 13 — I’m not sure if he actually  mentioned the date, but I was so sure that he meant it on that date.

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The past returns…

I thought I have gotten over with my past… I have started to move on… I’m happy with my new girl friend now.

However, ever since she transfered her little sis to this school where I’m teaching … I’ve been seeing her more often than usual… plus seeing her sister almost everyday is like looking at her! 

 Memories have returned! Feeling that I thought have been long buried have resurfaced! The more I see her, the more that I wanted to talk with her!

I’m happy with my girlfriend … but how come everytime that I hold my girlfriends hand, every time I hug her … I’m wishing it was ….