A Change She Brought into my Life

It's 2:00 AM. And I'm listening one of Bo Sanchez's talk and I realized one thing.

Years ago, I never cared much for money. Somehow, in studying some eastern philosophy coupled with my spiritual/religious inclination that time I had once embraced the principle of detachment, specially when it comes to my financial situation. I didn't seem to care how much I pay I get from my job. What matters to me at the was, I was contented at everything. And at that time I thought that was enough.

Even the financial burden that my family was in (and still in at the moment), was enough to make me change my mentality. I always thought, I can always live on what I get, no matter how little. Though, I admit I still get worried sometimes, specially whenever my mom starts talking about the problem and emphasizing on the problem without a hint of a single possible solution! (This would often make my day very, very bad!!!)

I always thought, I would think of myself alone and me alone, I can live, I can support myself. I'm happy working with the community. My life was mainly focused with the community. Thinking that God will somehow provide for me and my family financially, as I have experienced once or twice before.

But somewhere along the way, I didn't realized it before, I started to think of earning more money! And it all started when I have been going out with her.  Not because she demands it, no she never did that to me (one reason that I love her).  But there was a time that I can no longer take her out because I don't have enough money in my pocket!  Plus, I realized I can't take her out forever in my  small bike! The weather alone could easily ruin our plans in an instant! There was a time when their company had a formal affair and I was invited, how do you think I can take her out in her beautiful new dress?!? Plus she was with a friend. I started to think that I had to do something! Earn more! So that maybe in a couple of years or so, I'll take her out in a brand new White CRV… I admit she said that to me once in joke that she wants a white CRV and P30,000.00 monthly for shopping. Yes, it was a joke, but I took it as a challenge!

So the changes started, I had to leave my community for a while. So for a few months there after, I looked for possible leaders to train and replace me. The next step, was to prepare my self for the future, specially financially! If wanted to get married soon, I can't go on living like I am now! I don't like what I have seen with my two married brothers! They can hardly keep up with the expenses for their families! When I get married, specially if I get married to her, I don't want her to worry financially!

This is one thing that I am very thankful that she came into my life. She made me change for the better. Probably  it wasn't her intention, but in her own little ways, I learned a lot from her. And she motivated me to get rid of my old ways. I just wish that someday I could truly thank her for this. Better yet, share with her the fruits that this change will bring