Wrong Decision (?)
December 20, 2006
We actually had a very good relationship… we see each other almost everyday… until I came into a croos road. I had to make a decision, which comes first…
Y
Also we had a small business that unfortunately, because of the current economic crisis, is barely surviving.
Now a few months within our relationship, for some reasons the other leaders went AWOL and I was the only one left and some new members. So our elders had no else to rely on, and we must do something to prevent our chapter from dissapearing,,, But it meant, I have to spend more time with it, I was hoping I could inspire others to follow my lead… I have to make a drastic descision… Was I wrong to follow my logic, at the time? I reasoned, more people are in need of my time in the community so I have sacrifice my own time, and my own emotions … I tried as much as could to spare her sometime, but our free time no longer co-incide …
I was thankful at first, for she knows its important for me… she tried to understand … but I guess it took me too long to resolve the task at hand…
It took me too long to accomplish that … her patience ran out… she would not even answer my calls or reply to my messages anymore…
I realized now that one mistake that I did is I relied fully on my logical thinking ( I guess I watched too much Star Trek Movies and got mr spocks line of thinking). I failed to consider the emotional needs … Her emotional needs…
Previous Comments
I think if I were in your ex-gf’s position, I’d leave you too. It’s hard to love someone who’s heart is so divided. Many women in bf-gf relationships, are not like men who can compartmentalize aspects of their life. We take it as a whole. It’s always either all or nothing. So since you can’t give your all, I’d rather have nothing to do with you.
Posted by Sexy Nomad at December 24, 2006, 2:13 pmHit right between the eyes like Goliath got hit by David’s stone!!! Truth hurts. But I realized that too. It was my mistake not give her all… Probably it was my pride fueled by my twisted idea of a commitment to my community.
Hmm. I wasnt planning to post any blog today. But Nomad’s comment requires one. 
BTW, I could never thank you enough for this comment. It hurts but its the truth. And coming from a Psych major…
Truth hurts..
I agree with SexyNomad, if I were your GF, I’d probably kick you out of the door.
Funny, but it’s hard to balance love and duties. Duties takes up time.. time that could be given to the person that you love.
Wish you luck anyways.
Posted by twistedkai at December 26, 2006, 10:48 pmAll comments are moderated. Your comments will not appear here unless approved by the blog owner. Thank you.
In my honest opinion, I think you made the wrong choice. You should’ve left the community, let them find someone else to do the job, and nourished your relationship with your girlfriend. Once your love for each other has become stable enough, you can then spend more time again with the community, probably even bring your gf there to help you out and you’d be happier now. If for instance your chapter will not survive you leaving it, then it’s not meant. Remember, you make your own life happen. This emotional hell hole you’re in right now is your own fault, your own doing and only you can change it.
Posted by Sexy Nomad at December 24, 2006, 1:59 pm