I could never be free!!!
February 26, 2010
I could never be free, from the chains that you have wrapped around my heart! For a time I held on to that chain, let it control my life. But my life was going in circles, it seems I can’t get away from you, I can’t get near you.
Until I thought I have found the key that truly had set me free! Finally the chain is unlocked, and I finally moved on! Joy was in my heart again for quite sometime.
And so I thought… But how is it that the past haunts me still! Visions of you visit my dreams time and again. Day by day, a face of someone else reminds me of you! The hands of another remind me of your touch! Feelings that I thought I have long forgotten have once again awaken! Now like a shadow it seems to follow me wherever I go.
Ahh! Life! It’s more complicated than it was!
The Parents
February 10, 20103 AM.
I just had another dream. This time is a bit different. I did not dream about her … not directly … In my dream I saw her parents in what it seems a mall. I greeted them both. What I haven’t expected was, her father asked me to come by their house this coming Saturday, February 13 — I’m not sure if he actually mentioned the date, but I was so sure that he meant it on that date.
The past returns…
February 1, 2010I thought I have gotten over with my past… I have started to move on… I’m happy with my new girl friend now.
However, ever since she transfered her little sis to this school where I’m teaching … I’ve been seeing her more often than usual… plus seeing her sister almost everyday is like looking at her!
Memories have returned! Feeling that I thought have been long buried have resurfaced! The more I see her, the more that I wanted to talk with her!
I’m happy with my girlfriend … but how come everytime that I hold my girlfriends hand, every time I hug her … I’m wishing it was ….
Hooked … (again)
January 15, 2010I thought, I have started to move on… I thought, with my new relationship, I finally got it over with her. But …
I’ve been dreaming about her again… And the last time, I was talking with he, I don’t know what we were talking about but before I woke up, she let me hug her. Is this another premonition of what is to come, or just something that came out of my suppressed desire for her?
I said premonition of what is to come because some of the dreams that I had about her are starting to come true… or at least the way I interpreted those dreams started to come true…
The last dream I had about her was last Tuesday… and was it coincidence that I saw her the next day?
My Heart Still Goes Crazy!!!!
October 14, 2009Why does my heart still goes crazy everytime I see her? I thought I have moved on already… I thought I have let go already… I have learned to love someone else for over a year now… but… the recurring dreams that I had about her seems to be getting real lately…
Ever since the school reopened last June, I get reminded about her almost everyday… and everytime I set my eyes on her… my heart beat goes uncontrolably fast!!! It seems my past is catching up on me…
What does this mean????
